Tag: adhd

T-Minus 9 Hours

On By Michel McDonaldIn CyclingLeave a comment

Hehe I’m counting down the time before I go out on the bike.  I’m really excited about finally being able to ride my bike again.  I really hope that I don’t have any problems with the wheel.

If everything is ok then great.  But whether it goes bad or is all good I’m going to still return the wheel to the bike shop and see if they have the correct wheel.  If not then I’ll see if they have the correct tire to go with that wheel.  I just don’t want to have any issues with it. But I want to be positive about it and hope that it all goes well.

You know when it’s going to be Christmas in the morning or you know that your parents are going to take you to Disneyland in the morning so you can’t go to sleep because that’s all you can think about?  That’s how I feel right now.  I took an ambien because I know I won’t be able to sleep.  Then again I have ADHD anyway so I know that I won’t be able to sleep lol.  But you know, I’m real excited.

I am not so excited that I’m going to wear all my biking gear and clothes with shoes to bed so I can just wake up and run out the back door and not have to worry about putting on my helmet and backpack and sunglasses because they are already on.  No, I’m not THAT excited.  Just regular excited.

That last paragraph was for Sue who tried to make fun of me and I was a douche nozzle to her.  So there you go Sue.  I really hope you got a kick out of it.

Can’t Sleep

On By Michel McDonaldIn Daily BlogLeave a comment

I have to take Ambien to help me sleep because I have ADHD really bad.  If I don’t take a sleeping pill I’m up all night.  I’m a real bad insomniac.  I would love to be able to just lay down and bam I’m asleep but I can only do that when I’m so exhausted from lack of sleep lol.

I also have Sleep Apnea which means I gotta wear a mask on my face which forces air into my lungs through my nose and that’s also why I need ambien.  Believe me, if you were me you would not say jack shit about drug abuse by taking ambien because wearing that mask and having the air forced into your lungs doesn’t make falling asleep easy.  I’ve had it for a few years too and I still can’t sleep without a sleeping pill.

My problem though is that I think I’m becoming immune to the effects of the ambien which is why I lay in bed for 2 hours with my eyes closed but brain still open for business.

Well, my first ambien I took was only half a pill (for this very reason) so I’ve already taken the other half and now I’m ready to get back in bed.

Until tomorrow…

Distractions

On By Michel McDonaldIn BooksLeave a comment

How is it that some people can read like the newspaper or a magazine with the TV on and people talking nearby?  I don’t read the newspaper because it’s just too much information to read.  I’d rather watch the news to know what’s happening in the world.  I can barely type this without having to look at the TV.

Darrin can sit there reading the newspaper with the news on the TV lol.  I try to read my book and every little noise distracts me.  If there is no noise then the silence is deafening and that is distracting.

I have ADHD so every little thing distracts me.  I am able to read a book if I try hard enough to ignore all the little things but it’s hard.  Especially when the ice cream truck goes by.  The whole time I was reading the Harry Potter novels I was so into them that I was able to ignore noises but there came a point that I had to buy all the Harry Potter soundtracks and it made reading easier.  I would try to hum the main titles in my head while reading, it would help me but I had to buy the soundtrack so I wouldn’t have to think lol.

I’m reading The Source of Magic which is the 2nd book in the Xanth series and I had to go outside today to read it because the TV in the living room was just too loud and the lighting in my room sucks so bad but then it started to sprinkle.  Yeah I was under a roof but the rain drops were coming down so hard on the fiberglass roof it was too DISTRACTING!  LOL