First Person Shooters


The first time I ever heard of a first person shooter game, it was a computer game called Doom where you don’t see a character, all you see is a gun and the enemies that you have to kill. I sucked at it the first time I tried playing a FPS because I could never aim the gun on the person or monster I had to shoot and I would always end up dying. I just thought that FPS games were not for me. I will stick with RPG, adventure games and/or puzzle games.

The second time I saw a FPS game, it was Call of Duty and you weren’t killing NPC’s (non player characters), you were killing PC’s (player characters). In my mind, the PC’s weren’t a computer generated character, they were actual people whom I had to shoot to kill, and I just refused to do that because it made me feel like a bully and a murderer. I realize I am not actually killing a person, just their character, but it still made me feel like I was doing something bad. It was a moral issue for me.

When I got my PlayStation 4 for Christmas last year, I was given the choice of 4 games for free with the console. I didn’t want Little Big Planet because I knew I would get bored with it (I eventually got it for $24 and I did get bored with it, so I know I made the right call now). The other choices were Far Cry 4, and I watched videos on YouTube and I found out that not only was it a FPS, but you had to kill people. I am not sure if they were NPC’s or PC’s, but I just didn’t want to kill people. Then there was NBA2K15. I don’t do sports lol. My final option was Destiny. I watched videos and even though I hated that it was a FPS, it was killing aliens, and it was a space theme, so I figured that was probably more my thing, so I chose Destiny.

When I first started playing Destiny, it probably only took me a few minutes to get used to the controls and aim. My aim still needs to improve after almost a year, but it’s getting better. I actually think it has to do with the weapon because some upgrades to the weapons offer better aim and control. I can aim just fine on my Warlock because my weapons are kick ass, but still have trouble aiming with my lower level Titan and Hunter characters.


I bought the new Star Wars Battlefront game. I actually have 2 of them for my old PSP, but this one is a lot better. I started just playing by myself, but those missions are hard, even on the easy mode lol. I can’t imagine playing the hard mode. I started playing the multiplayer and it’s actually more fun. I know, I’m doing what I hate, I am not only killing people, but I’m killing people who are playing people.

I think that I have evolved in the sense that I went from hating FPS’s and feeling horrible about killing people’s characters, to actually loving to do both. It’s actually fun. I know I am not hurting anyone’s feelings by killing their character, but that’s exactly what I thought I was doing because I thought it would hurt my feelings if they killed me, but it doesn’t hurt my feelings. I mean, NPC’s kill me all the time and it doesn’t hurt my feelings because I know it’s a game and that’s how the game is played. So why should my feelings be hurt if it’s an actual person playing that character? It’s all psychological. It’s actually stupid if you think about it.

Okay, I have to go kill some storm troopers and/or rebels.

Destiny on PS4


I’ve always hated first person shooter games, mainly because I didn’t like the thought that I would be murdering people. I know, it’s just a game, they aren’t real people and no one is actually getting hurt, but it has just always turned me off. It would be one thing if I am killing goblins, orcs, trolls, ogres or anything else that is not real, but humans, that’s just weird to me.

When I got my PS4 for Christmas, I had the choice of 4 games. Destiny, NBA 2K15, Far Cry 4 or Little Big Planet 3. I didn’t want Destiny or Far Cry 4 because those were shooter games. I didn’t want NBA 2K15 because I’m not big on sports. I wanted to choose Little Big Planet 3, but I have the first LBP on my PSP and I honestly didn’t think it would be any better than the version I already have, which I am stuck on, and that fact is what made me decide to not choose LBP. I decided I would watch YouTube gameplay videos for Destiny and Far Cry 3. I also asked some Gaymers on Facebook and most of them told me Destiny. It was ultimately my decision, but I chose Destiny because I loved that it’s science fiction and that I would be flying around in space. It also helped that the bad guys are evil aliens instead of humans.

I tried playing it, but I became too addicted to Minecraft. When that addiction started to subside, I decided to go back to Destiny, and now look at me, I’m level 23. I’m actually level 20, but the light from my new level 20 gear brought me up to level 23. I guess there is a level cap at 20, but your light can take you to level 32 thanks to the Dark Below expansion, which I paid $20 extra for.

So far I’ve been to the Cosmodrome in Russia, which seems to be the only place on Earth you can go to, I’ve been to the Moon and to Venus. I spent a lot of my time doing missions in the Cosmodrome rather than doing story because I kept dying in story at my lower level, so I waited until I had better gear and weapons.

I have not gone into the PVP areas because I don’t do well when I have to play with others, especially if I have to chat with people. The last bad experience I had with that was when I was playing Lord of the Rings Online, and this experience actually turned me off playing with other people. I was doing a group raid on this one place and the quest involved lighting these pillars on fire, so I said “Flame on?” meaning should we light the fires? Someone said something like I don’t do that faggot shit or something to that effect, and it really pissed me off. That was in text too. If I have to have my headphones on with a mic and have to deal with people with my voice, I don’t know how much I may overreact and end up giving myself such a horrible reputation with other players. You never know if they may spread rumors about me in the message boards or whatever. I wouldn’t mind joining a clan, which is like a guild, if that clan has gay people or is a gay clan. At least I know they aren’t going to do that to me.

Well, this game has turned out to be a lot of fun, and I’m glad I chose it.