You know how some people are homophobic but they don’t throw it in your face but you know they are because they give you a disapproving glare or they make snarky comments when referring to your sexuality? Well, I have one particular family member who is sort of like that. The whole gay issue is never brought up, like it’s so shameful that we just don’t talk about it out of fear that it will tear our relationship apart because of differing opinions or something.
I was talking with said family member on the phone today who was the only family member by the way who ever calls me on my birthday and she was 6 days late calling me. But the subject of Chips deceased cousins relationship came up and she asked how long they were together and I said 27 years. “Wow, how long have you guys been together” she asks which I respond 17 years. “WOW!”
I get no gratification for throwing it in her face that I am in a long-term relationship but when you tell a person like her who is against gay relationships that you have been together for 17 years and they have a “WOW” response, it makes you feel good. Like “IN YOUR FACE” or something. Not a mean in your face but you know.
I would say that I am the black sheep to half of my family because of my sexuality which if you think about it is such a stupid reason to be the black sheep. I mean, I was born this way, you don’t make me a black sheep because I was born with hazel eyes and brown hair do you? Of course not because that is absurd. So why make me the black sheep because of my sexuality which I have no control over just like I have no control over the fact that I have male pattern baldness.
You know what I say to society, I’m here, I’m queer, get effing used to it biatches! I’m in a committed long-term monogamous relationship with a person with whom I love and nothing anyone says about it is going to change that. Get over your insecurities about gay people and realize we aren’t going to change. We do have loving normal relationships just like all of you straight people. The only difference is that we can’t get each other pregnant, which if you think about it is more of a blessing cause who wants that? Not me!
I am so sick of people judging me so yeah, I get a little excited when someone who doesn’t approve has a moment when they are impressed by it. As if I was ever seeking approval, I’m not but you know what I mean.
No matter what the circumstances are, she is my family and I respect her even though she may not respect me for being gay but goddamnit, it’s my life. Be grateful I’m happy and I’m not miserable in a relationship with a woman who I am not sexually attracted to with children who probably hate me for taking out my aggression on them for having to be stuck in that marriage just to please your homophobic ass.
That’s all I have to say. *Steps off of my soap box*