The nerve of some people

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The subject of this blog is not a complaint about someone’s character, rather a discussion on nerves, more particularly the nerves in my face since my Parotidectomy surgery in November.

You can read the details of my surgery in the link in the previous paragraph, or I can give you the cliff notes version.  I had a stone growing in my saliva gland and it had to be removed because it was causing a massive amount of pain.  It was removed by a surgeon at the Kern Medical Center on November 20th 2013.  It left me with a huge scar and a golf ball sized chunk taken out of my face.  It has been numb ever since, but the feeling is coming back, more importantly pain is coming back.

You see all those nerves in the diagram above?  Everything is connected.  Even though most of my face is numb, I can feel electrical impulses when I touch certain parts of my face.  If I touch my jaw line near my chin, I can feel electrical impulses in my earlobe.  If I touch anywhere near the incision area, I can also feel it all the way up my ear.  If I touch my earlobe, I can feel it in the spot on my jaw line near my chin from before.  There are certain areas that even the slightest touch can cause pain from the electrical impulses.  Even blowing on my skin can cause the feeling and possibly pain.

I’m not bothered by it as much as I probably should be because I know that my face is still healing.  The numbness is still there, but it is going away.  It’s like that pins and needles feeling you get when you sit on your foot for too long and your foot goes numb and then you get the pins and needles, although the pins and needles only shows up when I touch my face, and it doesn’t show up in the exact spot that I touch.  It’s a very strange feeling, but I am getting used to it.

The other day my partner touched my face and I recoiled in pain and he was a bit shocked at my overreaction, but he didn’t understand what I am feeling.  Heck, I didn’t quite understand it until now.

My last appointment with the surgeon at KMC was yesterday and he told me that there are more stones growing in the saliva gland on the left side of my face so eventually that will need to be taken care of like the right side, but that may take years to happen.  I am not going to worry about that until the pain comes from that.

Speaking of pain from nerves, am I having massive tooth pain and need to visit the dentist in May when my dental insurance kicks in again.  Right now all they will cover is emergency extractions and right now I am having an emergency in 3 or 4 teeth and I would much rather have fillings than more extractions.  I am using a sensitive toothpaste, but it doesn’t seem to be helping me very much.  I’ve flossed and flossed and that only makes it worse and my teeth are so jagged that they cut the floss in half and I can never get the floss out of between my teeth.  The Listerine helps numb the pain when I finish brushing, and sometimes I just swish with it just to numb the pain 3 or 4 times per day.

It seems I am always in pain.  I feel like I was the worst person in the history of humanity in a previous lifetime and I am paying for the bad karma in this lifetime.  I sometimes feel like I am earning some of my karma back by being a good person, but it doesn’t help at all.  I wonder who I was and what I did to deserve this.  Oh well, it doesn’t do any good dwelling on the past, especially a past I don’t have any memory of.

Anyway, I am looking forward for my next round of pain to end at least before my birthday lol.

Until next time…

Don’t Be Tardy For The Wedding

I am not a huge reality TV fan, well unless it’s Kathy Griffin’s My Life on the D-List.  I didn’t like all of the Real Housewives shows because I just can’t take the drama.  I have a low threshold for people screaming at the top of their lungs at each other.

I did watch and love a few of the Real Housewives shows though.  I didn’t watch the first season of Atlanta, but I did see a few episodes here and there.  I do love Kim Zolciak though because, well, she looks like a real life Barbie doll.  She has beautiful hair, even though they are all wigs, but can I just say that I love her without her wigs too?  She has a rack that won’t quit, yeah I said it, I know I’m gay but I would motorboat that shiznit.

When I heard that she was going to have a reality show based on her preparations to marry hunk of the century Kroy Biermann, I had to watch.  I loved that it had a little bit of drama in it, but I hated that the drama came from her mother.  I know mothers are supposed to be a little crazy, but I mean come on this woman took the cake.  She stole Kim’s thunder as her last act of crazy.

If you didn’t see it, here is how it went down.  Kim’s mother and I guess her sister, Kim’s aunt, decided they had to go use the bathroom, but they refused to use the porta potty that Kim had paid $6000 for.  They figured they were too good to use a $6000 toilet so they had to break the rules just to take a piss.  They went to the door to the house and the security guard told them they had to use the porta potty and they got high and mighty with him and screamed “I’m Kim’s mother and this is her aunt” and “I will burn down this house if I have to!”

Seriously?  They couldn’t just use the porta potty?  I mean, I saw the porta potty that they rented when they looked at it.  It was bigger than our bathroom AND it had an attendant to boot!  She is too good for that?

So while they were in the bathroom upstairs, they were trash talking Kim and Kroy.  I mean what nerve!  They break the rules then go and trash talk the bride and the groom and act as if they are gods.  Then she finds out that the police have been called to escort them out so she goes back to the party and tells people that she is being kicked out and she doesn’t know why.  When someone asks her where Kim is, she says “She’s behind all of it, with Kroy.”

Really?  I mean this woman is a liar, manipulator and an instigator.  I wouldn’t be surprised if Kim never spoke to her mother again after that.  Watch the video.

http://www.bravotv.com/video/embed/?/_vid18615847

OMG I am just so thankful that I never have to go through that, not marriage but having a mother to act like that at my wedding.  Especially when it’s on TV!  UGH!

But Kim and Kroy were calm, they didn’t make a huge deal about it ruining the whole night.  They showed them cutting the cake while her mother was being escorted out, I’m sure it was edited to look that way, but who really knows for sure.  Their wedding was a success and the whole season was fun to watch and I’m glad I didn’t miss it.

Now, let’s get back to me boycotting weddings until gay people are allowed to get married shall we?  LOL

Education School Security Orders CO Teen to Remove American Flags From Pickup Truck

Imagine if you will, a scenario where you are living in a country like the United States where you are told you are not allowed to be patriotic because it might upset someone. That is what happened to a Colorado Junior at his high school.

He was caught squealing his tires in the high school parking lot and got into trouble by the security guard who suspended his parking privileges for 2 weeks but then she had the nerve to tell him to take down the 2 American flags he had waving from the back of his pickup truck. She told him that it might upset someone.

If I were living in Mexico and I saw the Mexican flag waving proudly from a Mexican’s truck, I would not be offended because I am in Mexico. If I were living in Italy and I saw an Italian flag waving proudly from a Italian’s truck, I would not be offended because I am in Italy. And if I were living in ANY other country over the planet it would be the same thing. I would be proud to wave the flag of the country that I live in, even if I wasn’t born there.

What makes this security guard think that being proud of your country would upset people? It makes no sense. I think this security guard needs to re-evaluate her patriotism before she tries to tell someone they cannot be patriotic. In fact, I’d venture to say that she doesn’t deserve to have a job where she is in charge of telling people that they cannot wave the American flag in the United States.

Heck, the school itself waves an American flag on the flagpole, what makes her think that it’s not ok to wave a flag from your vehicle?

I’m sorry, it just upsets me to hear this kind of thing especially with September 11th coming at the end of this week.

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Education School Security Orders CO Teen to Remove American Flags From Pickup Truck

Jeremy Stoppel is man enough to admit that he deserved getting a ticket for squealing his tires in the school parking ticket. But he has a problem with the order that came down from school security — no more American Flags. He told KMGH-TV:

“She said I should take my flags down. She said this is a school that focuses on diversity and she doesn’t want anyone to feel uncomfortable,” Stoppel said. “How do you suppose anyone would feel uncomfortable in America with an American flag? That’s where I’m confused.”

Jeremy and his dad told the station they are looking for an apology:

“To me, she’s just threatening him, hoping that she can just bully him so he’ll just take ‘em down and just put his tail between his legs and say, ‘I’m done. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry.’ And that’s just not gonna happen,” said Dan Stoppel, Jeremy’s father.

The principal is promising to look into the matter. Stay tuned.

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