Tag: talking trash

I’m Drugged up with Adrenaline

On By Michel McDonaldIn My ChildhoodLeave a comment

It all started out with looking at my AOL buddy list then double clicking a name and saying hi to Chips cousins girlfriend.

We get in this conversation about her girlfriend being in the hospital which turns into me talking about my childhood lol.  I focused the conversation from her girlfriend in the hospital to my childhood trauma lol.

The more we talk about it, the more adrenaline pumps into my body and I start getting angry and then the testosterone starts pumping in and next thing you know, I’m wide awake at 2:30am.

I finally took an ambien which won’t work without food so I had a banana but I have a feeling I’m gonna need some toast.  Ok so I don’t need it, I’m craving it lol.

Why is it that when talking about my childhood my body starts to go through something else?  Most people would cry about it and get over it and it’s done.  But me, I don’t cry, I want to punch someone and since it’s not my style I want to punch something.  But since punching things also isn’t my style (I’m too cheap to damage things I have to replace) then the next best thing is to start growling and just being pissed off lol.

As I’m back in time in my head I’m yelling IN MY HEAD at people who are talking trash to me and I’m punching them in the face lol.  I guess it’s better and less illegal to punch a memory in your mind lol.

This would be a great time to start writing about what happened but I’d rather keep writing in chronological order when I write my book so I’ll wait.  Those memories aren’t gonna go away so I can put them in the back of the closet for a while until I get to them and then watch out lol.

Anyway, off to bed when I get food in me and the ambien kicks in.  Relaxing helps calm me down long enough to go to sleep because it stops my brain from working overtime lol.

Better Than Me?

On By Michel McDonaldIn TVLeave a comment

In the season finale of Kathy Griffin’s My Life on the D-List, she was getting a star on the Palm Springs walk of er… fame?  She was visiting Suzanne Summers and they were walking through her “organic” garden and Suzanne was basically beating up Kathy for drinking diet sodas.

I know it seems that in all of my posts I’m talking trash but I’m not telling anyone that I’m better than they are because I have TONS of faults.  I’m not perfect, nobody is.  And people who eat healthy certainly are not better yet they act like they are better than everyone else.  Vegetarians too.  They act so superior because they don’t eat meat and you are such a horrible person for eating a hamburger.

It’s arrogant for anyone who eats organic or vegetarian to think that they are better than everyone else and to me it just shouts douchebag alert.  When I saw Suzanne basically making Kathy feel bad for sneaking in diet soda at her party it made me cringe because she has no right to tell anyone what they can and cannot drink.  It’s like the arrogance of Christians for telling gay people they cannot get married.

Wow, how did I sneak that in there?  LOL

Edit: I have to make a correction in this post.  Ok 1st, it was wrong for me to say douchebag alert.  And 2nd, a person does have the right to say that you cannot sneak something into their house because it is “their” house after all and if they don’t want something in then you shouldn’t bring it in.  Talk about arrogant.  I was being arrogant in both cases.  I truly am sorry.