I started writing my life story many years ago, but really worked hard on it in 2011. It took me 2+ months to write it and 4 months to edit it. I have sent it off to a few people as an advanced copy and of course mistakes were found. So it is not yet ready for publication, but it will be soon.
In case anyone is wondering what it’s about, I’ll tell you. I was abused as a child by my stepfather; my mother and older sister also mentally abused me. I tried to kill myself many times from the age of 13 until I was 20. A woman attempted to molest me when I was 15 years old and I was raped multiple times when I was 20. I was homeless for 6 months at the age of 15 and for 10 months when I was 17. I was also homeless in my early 20’s; I was living in motels, but that is technically considered being homeless. I met my soul mate and life partner of 17 (going on 18) years and meeting him was when it got better.
I started out writing my life story (as if anyone cared because I’m a nobody) but then these gay children started killing themselves and it suddenly evolved into an “It Gets Better” book. I want to show that I had a horrible life and I wanted to end it all, but it got better for me and it can get better for them too if they just hang on for a little bit longer. It may seem like it’s never going to get better, and believe me, I thought for years it could only get worse, but it did get better.
My main goal is that it may help someone out there who is being bullied and wanting to end it all. They will read my “it gets better” book and see that it got better for me and it can get better for them too. If they don’t read it, and I don’t expect them to, then perhaps someone can read it and give them the cliffs-notes version to help them.
I am a bit nervous about publishing it because of course I don’t want the people who I wrote about to get upset with me, despite them being in the wrong. They don’t even talk to me so I don’t know why I would care if they were upset with me anyway.
I am excited because I am finally finished and can publish it soon. What makes me more excited is that I can finally help some charities when I get my first check from the sales of the book. I have wanted to help these charities for a long time but couldn’t because I never had the money.
Today is Wednesday, so hopefully I will be able to publish my book within the next week. Of course I will be advertising my little butt off here, on Twitter, on Google+ and on Facebook so stay tuned for that lol.
Thanks for reading.