Today is the first day of my second week with my second goal and I have lost less than 2lbs. I was so hoping to lose 2lbs or more. On the last day of my first goal I was 200lbs on a Friday, two days later on Sunday, I weighed 199 and a day or two later 198. So, to still be at 198 sucks. If I was 198 on a Tuesday, then wouldn’t you think that by Saturday I would be 197 or 196?
I am not going to stress myself out over this because at least I lost weight this week. I could have hit a plateau and I could still be 200lbs, or worse, so I am going to take this as a positively as I can.
My profile says that I have 0 workouts per week, and that is because I never plan a workout since I don’t have a bicycle. My back is always in pain and if I decide I want to go for a walk then I will do it, but I don’t want to feel pressure to do it by my phone. I have an app called Squats that is constantly beeping and reminding me to do squats, but I am always in too much pain to even get out of my chair or get out of bed, so I just ignore the reminder. When I do go for a walk, I am in agony the entire time.
I have not really explained the pain I feel with degenerative disc disease. I am not a scientist or a doctor, so I can’t really know for sure that this is happening, but with degenerative disc disease, your discs are well, degenerating, they are wearing out, they are thinner than they are supposed to be so it feels like my spine bones are grinding together. It feels like I am getting 10 shots all in the same spot all at the same time. I also have nerve damage in my back, so I can’t feel the skin on my back, so when I am touching my back in the area that I am having pain, it’s like I am touching someone else’s skin. I wish that it was in reverse, where I can feel the skin but not the pain in my spine, but it is what it is.
So now you know what happens when I try to take a walk. I go out and I am fine for the first 5 minutes, but then my pain starts to come on gradually, by 20 minutes the grinding is intense. These walks might take 30 to 40 minutes so you can only imagine how I am feeling by the time I get home. Oh and that’s only 2 miles by the way. It’s not really that far. This is what my walk looks like.
This is the last walk I went on. I went to the post office to drop off a package, and then I decided to just keep walking. You can see where it says Oleander/Sunset, that’s where I live, where I started walking, the bottom right is the post office. I went South to the post office, then West, then North, then East and then South to come back home. That is a typical walk, and that is only 2.07 miles.
It’s not a lot of distance, but it’s way too much for my back to handle. I insist on walking this far because I want to succeed. No pain, no gain, right? Although the pain they are referring to is from muscle tearing while you are working out, not your spine grinding, but still.
I would love to go for walks everyday and for a lot more distance than just 2 miles, but it’s just too painful, so I can only do it a couple or a few times per week. I wish that I could fix my bicycle or buy a new one, but I just can’t afford it right now, so walking is my only cardio option for now.
I am hoping to lose more than just 1.8lbs next week, but I am not going to put pressure on myself if I don’t because I can only do so much with what I have. Like I have said in the past, at least I haven’t hit a plateau or gone back up in weight. Let’s see where I am at next Saturday.