I have had serious back pain for probably the last decade of my life. Sometimes my back locks up when I bend over and boy it is painful. Mostly I can’t walk too far before the pain kicks my ass into submission and I have to sit or lay down. I can walk to the grocery store from the house because it is only 3 blocks from the house, my back is in pain by the time I come home but it’s not excruciating. I cannot go for a walk for exercise though. Before I got a new (used) bicycle wheel, I was trying to walk for exercise and that caused the most horrible pain I have ever felt in my 43 years on this planet, and that is not hyperbole either.
Last month I had some x-rays of my back taken and a week ago my doctor told me that according to the x-rays, my back was curving, and he shaped his hand like a parenthesis (. I misunderstood when he mentioned something about slouching, so naturally I thought my back was arching outward because I do tend to slouch a lot, but then I went to see him again yesterday and I asked him about the x-rays again and he wrote down on a piece of paper exactly what he means. This is a normal spine |. This is my spine (. He drew it on a piece of paper so I could see exactly what he meant.
That makes sense to me, and that explains a lot why my back is in pain in the middle of my spine. I was diagnosed with degenerative disc disease in my lower spine a few years ago and so I was assuming that it was going up which was why I was in so much pain in the middle of my spine which is why I asked my doctor for help. Who knew that it was some new problem.
So I use the term scoliosis loosely. I don’t know for a fact that I have scoliosis. I asked my doctor “Is it like scoliosis?” and he responded with “yes” but that was not a diagnosis. He asked me if I wanted to see a physical therapist and I said yes because I don’t know what to do about this and if a physical therapist can help me, then I’m going to go see one. It will also help me with my weight loss, so I will do anything that I can to help stop this pain.
I called my aunt this week and told her about it, but with the impression that my spine was bending outward, but with the understanding that I had no clue which way it was bending. I mentioned that I wanted to ask about a back brace and she said “DO NOT ASK FOR A BRACE! You do NOT want to depend on a back brace, trust me.” I don’t like arguing with people, especially her because she gets very emotional, but like I said before, I will do anything that I can do to stop this pain. I didn’t ask my doctor for one when I saw him, but if a physical therapist suggests and prescribes one then I will wear it.
No I don’t want to have to rely on a brace, but I will do whatever it takes to stop this constant nagging pain that I have all day. I’m not joking when I say I am in pain all day. I am literally in pain every waking moment. Even if I’m sitting down like right now I’m in pain. If I’m laying down, I’m in pain. I can’t do the dishes for more than 5 minutes without being in pain. I can’t go to the mall and walk around like a mindless zombie like my partner loves to do because… you guessed it, it causes me pain. It doesn’t really matter where I am or what I am doing, you can guarantee that I will be in agony, whatever it is.
I had a broken arm earlier this year and I was taking Vicodin probably 3 times a day. It wasn’t stopping the pain in my arm, but it was helping and it did help my back pain, so I had a vacation from my pain for as long as I was taking the Vicodin. I stopped taking the Vicodin when I stopped having pain and naturally the pain in my back came back immediately. I have tried taking a Vicodin here and there, but they don’t seem to help at all. I have been taking Ibuprofen, and that helps my toothache, but it doesn’t stop my back pain.
Oh one more thing about my back pain. I have a very large patch of skin on my back that is dead. I mean the nerves actually I say that because my back in that spot has been numb for 19.5 years. It never really bothered me until now. Now it tingles and the numbing is causing pain. It’s constantly itching and I’m constantly scratching it and the tingling really bugs the hell out of me. Scratching doesn’t do anything except weird me out that I can’t feel my own fingers touching my back. I mean, I can feel it, but I can’t feel it if that makes sense. It’s like I know my hands are scratching my back, but it feels like someone else is doing it. I can’t explain it, it’s a very odd sensation.
Anyway, I would really love to just go one day without having pain if that is possible. I am hoping a physical therapist will help because I am really sick and tired of being sick and tired of being in pain.
Naturally I will update my blog when I begin physical therapy.