Week 11 Weigh In Day

It’s been one helluva week for me, so I honestly don’t even care that I didn’t lose weight this week, but instead I gained about 1.2lbs.

This week I bought 10 days worth of meals from Albertson’s because they were on sale for $1.69 each, but they aren’t the Lean Cuisine or Weight Watchers Smart Ones, they are Signature Select which is a generic store brand. They taste good, and that’s really all that matters.

This week I also found my paternal father’s family and I found my brother, which I blogged about, so I’ve been celebrating and I have eaten things I shouldn’t have eaten, and honestly I just don’t care because I’m so happy right now.

The stress of trying to find someone is just unbelievable. But, I have closure now, so I don’t need to worry about being stressed out over trying to find my father. Right now my focus is getting to know my big brother. The weight will continue dropping as I continue eating healthy and continue going to the gym.

Yesterday at the gym I just felt like I was starving to death for some reason. I had to get off the treadmill after 35 minutes and I was going to go to Barnes & Noble next door to buy a croissant from the Starbucks, but then I noticed Planet Fitness had this big display with cookies that they were selling for $3. I didn’t care that it was that expensive, I just needed some food in my belly. I also didn’t care that it was 200 calories for just half of the cookie. I ate the whole damn thing. Deal with it lol. I also bought a box of generic organic nilla wafers and they were good, deal with that too lol.

Dell SupportAssist Frozen (SOLVED)

If you’re in a rush, scroll down for the solution.

I had to buy a new computer this year because Microsoft released an update that basically killed my other computer. I don’t know if it was a hardware issue, but it wouldn’t load Windows properly, so I was basically forced to get a new one. I mean in all fairness, my last computer was built around 2007, so I was due for a new computer anyway.

So I bought a Dell Inspiron 3668 from Office Depot. This has a program on it called Dell SupportAssist that updates your hardware drivers, scans hardware for issues and fixes them, cleans up the crap and tunes performance.

I don’t know what happened, but for the last week it has been telling me there is an update and every time I load the Dell SupportAssist program, it freezes up on me. I thought I had to close programs for it to load, and it nearly did load a couple of times, but then it didn’t. I uninstalled software that I wanted to have installed, but I hardly ever used them  because I thought that might help, but it didn’t.

Ok so I’m sure you’re like get to the point, how do I fix this? Well this is what I found on a Dell support forum.

SOLUTION:

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This fixed my problem. I went to that location and found that file and just simply removed “-small” and it fixed it. It loads now. It is that simple.

So I hope this helped you if you were having this problem.

Crocheted C2C Graphigans on Etsy

​I have these wonderful crocheted graphigan blankets ready to make, if you can wait 4-6 weeks for delivery. I brought the price of the blankets down as well as the price of shipping. I’ve already made a Betty Boop blanket and it came out beautifully and it gave me the experience I needed to make and sell them on Etsy.

DC & Marvel – https://www.etsy.com/listing/494818922/handmade-dc-marvel-character-queen-size

Disney – https://www.etsy.com/listing/495024252/handmade-disney-character-queen-size

Christian Praying Hands – https://www.etsy.com/listing/495024918/handmade-christian-queen-size-crocheted

Trailer, Rainbow Heart and Betty Boop – https://www.etsy.com/listing/495173314/handmade-trailer-rainbow-heart-betty

I’m not sorry…

I’m a lifelong Democrat, and my life partner of going on 23 years is a lifelong Republican. I guess that’s something that we just didn’t discuss for the first couple years of our relationship. I mean I knew he hated Bill Clinton, I didn’t know it was because he had to as a requirement to remain a Republican.

For the last 8 years of our relationship I’ve had to hear him talk trash about Barack Obama over the phone to all his friends and family, and trust me when I say it was for at least 3 or 4 phone calls daily for 8 long years. Not to mention having to hear him bash Obama to complete strangers standing in line at restaurants, concerts, movies, or even at the bank. Anywhere! Everywhere! We had a friend who was a movie star who basically cut ties with us because he was sending her emails bashing Obama.

I’m going to miss Obama, but I’m not going to miss the Obama bashing, and believe me when I say it’s still going strong because he can’t bash Donald Trump, so who else can he bash? There aren’t any other democrats in the news. Trump is the only thing in the news that I’m aware of.

So tonight was the Grammy awards and I told him it was on and he said “I’m not watching it because they’re all being mean to Trump.”

Awww! Does someone have butt hurt feelings?

I never said one thing about Bush for 8 years. I sat there listening to all his lies about weapons of mass destruction and I didn’t say one word. I had to listen to how much hatred you had for Obama for 8 years and I didn’t say one word. Trump is going to make a lot of mistakes and you are so butt hurt that you don’t want to hear one word from me, and I’ll try to keep my mouth shut, but don’t ask for my sympathy when you didn’t show me one ounce of sympathy for what you did to me.

Michael’s “Knit Quick” knitting machine

I’ve been crocheting since I basically taught myself with leaflets in 1988 when I turned 18. I prefer to crochet because knitting never clicked with me. I’ve wanted to learn, but instead I bought round knitting looms to make hats and scarves.

My Aunt gave me a $100 gift card for Christmas, and I’ve been watching videos from Margaret Olander “Sheepishly Sharing” on YouTube about the Addi Express knitting machine. She did a review of this knitting machine and she gave it 2 thumbs up, meaning it was a good machine. So I used my gift card to buy it with a 50% of coupon.

Unfortunatly, not all yarn is compatible. It will drop tons of stitches with red heart yarn. The yarn has to be soft like the Caron Simply Soft. Margaret says she prefers Vanna’s Choice. I would love to try Caron Cakes to make a scarf.

Another unfortunate thing is that it doesn’t make very big hats. Depending on the length, you can make preemie, newborn and baby hats. Here are some preemie hats I made with and without pom poms.

Scarves are a good width, you can make them any length you want. Here is a scarf I made.

Anyway, my plan was to use all the yarn I have to make hats for the homeless, but I’m guessing there aren’t too many homeless babies out there, so I’ll just make scarves since they only take an hour and 30 minutes to make, then I guess I’ll just make the hats with actual knitting needles.

Teddy bear C2C crochet baby blanket

My previous post was about a Betty Boop blanket I crocheted for my aunt, this it’s a baby blanket I made for My cousins son who is 5 years old. I honestly didn’t think he would use it for anything but like sleeping, so My mind wasn’t anywhere like a Linus blanket.

So he opened it on Christmas and he said “Oh, it’s a blanket.”  My aunt warned me that he’s 5 and he already has a blanket that he carries everywhere and nothing will ever replace it. That’s not what I was hoping for. I just wanted to make him a blanket, that’s all.

So later that night he was playing with his new video game in his parents room and I brought his blanket to him and he paused the game and said “I like your blanket, but I already have a mommy blanket that I use so I will probably use your blanket when I sleep in bed.”

LMAO I looked at him like hey no problem. My intention wasn’t to give him a Linus blanket, I just wanted to make him a blanket. How he uses it is really up to him, and it was cute and funny how he explained to me that he was basically going to use, but only on his terms.

I think he’s the cutest little thing and I hope to be able to watch him grow up, which it’s nearly impossible since I live so far away, but I’ll try.

Betty Boop C2C crochet blanket

In September and October I was crocheting a blanket made out of squares with many colors each with a black background. I was making this for my aunt for Christmas.

I was watching a video on YouTube and came across one from The Crochet Crowd that was teaching how to make C2C crochet, which stands for corner to corner. I thought it seemed interesting because you could make a blanket with pictures. I then thought hmmm… I wonder if they have a Betty Boop pattern, and I found one from http://www.TwoMagicPixels.com.

I started making this blanket right away. I had some white, but not enough, then found out the new yarn isn’t the same shade of white or texture, and I had trouble finding the right shade of skin for Betty, so I made a piece up to a certain point, then when I bought white I just started over fresh, and it took me a month to make this blanket.

I had to buy different brands because one brand didn’t have the same color for the skin, so the skin and the black, white and red are all different textures.

My Aunt loved it. I was hoping to make her a couch blanket because she takes a daily nap on the couch, like a ritual, but it’s way too big and heavy for a couch nap lol. It would probably be way too warm and she’s probably have to take it off after 5 minutes lol. Her bed is king size, the blanket is queen size, so that’s not good, but hey, I tried right?

Anyway, so yeah I learned a new pattern and gave an awesome gift.

Here is an example of how it’s crocheted along with the pattern next to it. It’s literally worked from corner to corner.

I’m baaaaaaack

So I’ve been gone lol. I stopped blogging because I started vlogging on YouTube. I thought I would vlog daily, or weekly at the very least, but it didn’t work out to be as often as I had hoped because my partner of going on 23 years walked in on me looking at me like he was about to call the men in white coats with a new wardrobe for me that consisted of nothing but pajamas, a robe and a straight jacket.

I bought a few things for vlogging, a light, 2 packs of mini DVD-r’s and a Mic because my camcorder’s Mic sucked and I had to yell to be heard. I bought a green screen so I could put a pretty background in, but the lighting was never enough for it to work in the new software I bought. Eventually I just switched over to my cell phone with a selfie stick.

It turned out that not a lot of people really cared about me talking so much as they liked my videos about crocheting. I guess if you don’t have something to teach, no one really cares what you have to say.

Ok so that’s enough for this post, I have a few more things to talk about, and I’ll need to put them in their own posts, so stay tuned.

YouTube

So… have you been watching my YouTube videos? What? You didn’t know I was on YouTube? Well, better late than never, eh? Check me out. http://www.YouTube.com/DiaryofaGayNerd.  I’m a sensation! Ok, so I’m not a YouTube sensation, but I’m working on it lol.

I think as with anything, my personality is shy in the beginning, then I start coming out of my candy coated shell until eventually I’m singing and dancing with a lampshade on my head. I haven’t gotten to that point yet, but I’m much more comfortable on camera, and I’m not even editing anymore. When I say editing, I mean editing out the parts where I start whining how I can’t do this and how I can’t think straight. Now I can literally talk for 20 minutes until I realize OMG I’ve been talking nonstop for 20 minutes! My first few dozen videos were about 10 minutes or less, now I’m like crap it’s going too long lol.

So check me out when you get the chance and see my personality in action. No, really, I need the views, likes and subs lol. PLEASE check me out lol.

Going back to Planet Fitness

planet fitness

We had to stop going to the gym last month because both of us got really sick. When I say we or us, I am referring to myself and my partner. I was diagnosed with HIV in 1991 and then upgraded to AIDS in 1994, so when I get sick, I’m not just sick with a 24 to 48 hour bug, when I get sick, I’m down for a month or longer. I literally have no immune system. My viral load has been undetectable for years and my t-cells have been pretty high in the 900’s for awhile now, but I still suffer when I get sick.

The virus from my cold is long gone, but I’m still coughing. I was coughing up and blowing mucus out of my nose even though I had no nasal or chest congestion at all. That first couple of days when we first got sick last month we just so happened to have a doctor’s appointment and the doctor checked my lungs by listening to my back while making me breathe in and out, in and out, in and out… He didn’t hear anything, so he told me I would be fine. I asked him for antibiotics or at least cough syrup, and he refused to give me anything. He didn’t want to give me medicine for something I don’t have. Well, that’s fine and dandy if I was only going to be sick for a couple days, but I was literally sick for a month.

So we could have gone back to the gym a couple of weeks ago, but we wanted to wait until it was fully out of my system. I would hate to give anyone else my germs and then get them sick.

Going back to the gym after being absent for a month is basically like starting over from scratch. Whatever exercises we did today will probably hurt in the morning and for the next couple of days. I mean, I don’t feel anything now, but then again we just came home from the gym about an hour ago, so who knows what may happen later tonight or when I wake up tomorrow. We’ll see.

The surgeon who operated on my broken leg in December told me to do leg exercises at the gym, and of course take my time and not try to force myself to bend my leg on the leg machines and then hurt myself. My leg is in agony, so I will have to be very careful when I do the leg exercises. I haven’t spoken to a trainer, but I already know which machines I want to start using… all of them! LOL No, but seriously, I will have to make an appointment so she can write down our day 3 exercises for leg day. She gave us 2 days for our upper body, and my partner only wants to go 3 days a week, so legs will all have to be done on the last day of the week.

I’m not expecting to lose any weight, I just want to exercise to feel healthy. You see, I have a feeling it’s when you stop trying is when you will actually lose weight. I say that because just about every time I try to lose weight, I end up gaining weight. So I’m using reverse psychology… on myself lol. Hey, whatever works right?